I’m in a bunker, hunkered down, eyes squeezed tight shut, head between my knees and hands over my ears.
I’ve been here for a while.
I’m not thinking, hearing, listening…
And then a little voice starts the pep talk.
“You know the drill…” it says, rather incompassionately, I feel. “You talk the talk. But it isn’t enough to talk the talk. You need to walk the walk, too.”
And therein lies the Practice.
“I’m busy being stressed right now!”
“I’ll stop when I’ve got this really stressful thing out of the way.”
No. Stop now.
“I’m not listening to you. I’ll listen to you when I’m good and ready, and not feeling stressed any more.”
No. Listen now.
“I can’t. I’ve got lots of things to finish, or I’ll just feel more stressed.”
How will that help?
“Stop telling me it won’t help! You’re not helping, telling me it won’t help!”
Then a third little voice chimes in: “But you know she’s right, don’t you? You’re just choosing not to listen. Why are you choosing not to listen? It’s okay. It’s your journey. It’s your choice. And when you choose to listen, you will have chosen to make it easier for yourself…”
That Inner Voice can be a bitch. She doesn’t corroborate your victim story. She doesn’t put an arm around you and tell you to go back to bed and only get up when it’s all gone away. She just, oh-so-calmly, tells you the truth. And you can choose whether or not to listen. And some days, it’s really easy to listen. And other days, it feels damn-near impossible.
And those are the days to practise walking your talk.
Except the reality that everything changes.
That doesn’t change 😉
If let to rest and settle
Always becomes clear.”